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Wow, and here we are again... [Sep. 8th, 2012|11:27 pm]
coopmasterj

livejournal on an android app? sure why not.
I'm not sure if anyone else I know still has an active journal, but that's not important.

 

I can't move on. I haven't changed.
seems I'm totally fucked.

 

I'm up too late or something....

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Come Clean [Jan. 21st, 2008|01:40 am]
coopmasterj
This is all so stupid.

When I have spare time i like to think about it until I hurt myself.

I'm honestly about to make myself sick. I make myself sick.  I make myself sick.

Not sure what I'm here for or why I'm alone again.  Oh wait.  yeah I do.

Vile.  Disgusting.  "piece of shit, worthless coward, vapid whore, moral-less refugee covered in sores".  Traitor.  Scum.  Tool.  liar.  Liar.  LIAR.

Question Why
Pet Supermarket
Logos Direct

Cannabis, Alcohol, Nicotine, Sins of the Flesh.  Simple Addiction gets me through the days.  The Weeks.  The Months. 

And when they're not with me, the seconds are like minutes.  The minutes, are like hours.  and the Hours seem agonizing and filled with hurt and devastation.  

Dreams mean nothing to me.  The hollow visions of desire and what is 'Good' don't mean a god damn thing. 

I need to fix what I have broken.
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(no subject) [Dec. 4th, 2007|10:12 pm]
coopmasterj
So I broke it down today. 

Hours in a week - 168
Hours I'm working at Pet Supermarket - 39
Hours I'm working at Question Why - 24
Hours working total this week- 63

Hours spent at school - 3
Hours spent at school total this week - 15

Hours of sleep per Night - 8
Hours of total sleep this week - 56

Hours of working, sleeping, and school this week -  134
Hours of Free Time this week - 34

Super sad face.
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(no subject) [Nov. 17th, 2007|09:13 pm]
coopmasterj
Alright!  Totally only left the house once tonight.  Sucksville.  I also slept pretty much all day as well. Wooo.

There's too much lettuce on my burger =(
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I'll read this tomororew and cry. [Nov. 17th, 2007|12:47 am]
coopmasterj
oh I'm so fucking drunk.

And so damn alone.  Damn.  (that's the only thing running through my mind right now.  damn and holy fuck and dfucink shit.)

Fucking went to a party.  got 5 games deep in beer pong.  me and fucking jordan were fucking on a 5 game winning streak, and then I told meylse f that it was totally time to go home.  it was way too crazy.  I didn't know anyone there besides one person besides jordon. 

I had smoked 2 cigs in 3 days,  and tonight I totally fucked that up.  I must have smoked half a pack tonight.  Druk and fuckm and then drove home.  I'm a horrible person.  I could have killed someone. 

I've got another cigarette staring me in the face, it was either going to be my success cig or my fail cig.  I got home, so it would make it my success cig. but I don't know if I could smoke another right now.

I think I'm about to go drunk dial.

I really really really really really really (surprised that I could spell really that many times) want someone to be here with me.  My mom is still out of town, and I wish someone would be with me.  t's jsut me and the dog right now.  I'll probably have one hell of a hang over tomorrow.  but I have the day off. 

Call me tonight.  or call me tonorrow. something something something.  love, judson.
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one last drunken post! [Nov. 15th, 2007|10:29 pm]
coopmasterj
Ha!  I got off early tonight.  Therefore, nothing to do in between 6 and now.  I've had quitea bit to drink, and no one has stopped by.  that's fine.  whatever.   I really wanted a cigarette, but trying to quit and then drinking is not the best way to do it. 

I had more to say, but now I can'tr rmember what any of it was.  I'm heading to bed.  School tomorrow 8-12 work tomorrow 3-10. 

Night bitches.
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(no subject) [Nov. 14th, 2007|11:27 pm]
coopmasterj
my mom is out of town.

I've got a case of PBR

I've had One Cigarette in 2 days. 

I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.  But I will.

I'm only working from 2-6 tomorrow.  anyone want to do anything after 6?

Oh yeah.  this is only Livejournal.  on;y like, 2 people know me on here.,  My bad.

senoir project is goign to suck.
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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2007|07:58 pm]
coopmasterj
It's alot easier to pick someone up when they're down.  A few seconds, some quick thinking, and a pair of hands.  There's a lesson here.

Metal is something else.  And I love metal shows.  Learn to Love music damnit.
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(no subject) [Nov. 6th, 2007|12:54 pm]
coopmasterj
Fuck it.  Meat is too damn good.

I'll try to quit smoking again instead.
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Nah, that's alright [Nov. 5th, 2007|10:32 pm]
coopmasterj
Today was a pretty shitty day.  Work sucks, and sometimes I question whether or not I'll quit first, or be fired first.  Cunts.  To the Max.

I've paid an extra 12 dollars to upgrade to a much better cell plan.  300 vs 700 anytime minutes, 2000 vs unlimited night and weekend minutes, and 300 vs UNLIMITED TEXT =D.  That's one thing to  be happy about.  that starts sometime tomorrow.

I can't wait to do my senior project, and get the hell out of school.  I want to get away so badly, but at the same time I don't.  I just want to be able to control more aspects of my life than I already do.  And to have money.  that isn't just thrown away almost as soon as I get it.

That's about it for tonight. =/
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